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last night my mum was watching this documentary on Chinese medications. which is how they make them. this involves bear farmers in the 90's that use moon bears like machines (literally)
they put in operate on the bear and put a metal catheters that go into their gall bladder to drain out bile which then goes in to the Chinese medications. this metal catheters was the basic thing to have on the moon bear it can go more crueller like they are the metal catheters are still there but the bear is put in a metal corset in there is a a tube that is from the metal catheter that goes in to a bag. ... that is one of the other devices that they use. they are also like battery animals (in a cage all the time and no fresh air or exercise and the only time that they eat is when the bear farmer are getting the bile out the gall bladder)
these moon bears that was on this bear farm maybe had the catheters in the gall bladder for more then 10 year (depending on how long they live)
there is a happy ish ending to this journal. because of some called Jill Robinson MBE, Founder of animals asia there is now a resue centre that looks after the moon bears that was at a bear farm which have suffered.

to find out more on this sickening new on moon bears cheack out this link....

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its was very good and funny day yesterday, so i thought to tell all..

well in the morning i didn't feel 100% healthy , my stomach was hurting felt dizzy and i thought that i was going to be sick which was amusing because i didn't no why so i got up to the sounds of my dog because my dad when fishing and she doest like it when he goes. and some sea gulls laughing o.O (which was alittle bit random) anyway......

i went to Chippenham to a buy some overall but to find out that the shop wasn't open. so me and my mum went to see my gran (like normal)

we went to Swindon to see my cousin that got engaged, she was like LOOK at my ring there a huge rock on there....i don't really no what to say that she's engaged but i think that she settling down too quickly. she only just turn 17 .. i don't see why she is getting engaged because i can understand that getting engaged at a young age when say when grand-parent was 17 or younger because of the poverty and the death rates was low, but i don't no why in this time of the earth because apparently people are living older so that there is no need to get married at a young age like 17.
but if she is brainwashed of being engaged, where she is in love with her fiancée, i cant really stop her and hope her the best . even thought she is making a big mistake in my eyes.
if you don't agree with this please say why.

anyway moving on...
i went SHOPPING!! gosh i haven't gone it a long time :joy: it was SOO much fun... to the fact that i saved up some money for a long time so i brought lots ^^
i brought-
+ fallout boy (Infinity on high)
+ long stripy black and whites socks
+ black nail polish
+ a gothic skirt from blue banana (i love it)
+ red eyeliner
+ black eyeliner
+ blueish black hair dye
+ ticket to see Ratatouille (funny story tell later)
+ a chicken salad baguette (LOL)
i think that's all i think or that i brought it and it was non-important


Ahh... the story of the day of Ratatouille i was going to meet some friends there.. i thought that we was meeting at 5:30 but it was 3:30 luckily i sort of realised and got a lift off her to the cinema. got there on time^^ but i saw no sign of my friends and i was like "where are they" so i looked all around the cinema looking for them.. (i got some weird looks from some people) so i thought "what the hell I'm here anyway i will see it anyway," so i got the ticket waited outside the screening (no sign still) went inside. sat down, for a while, got up to buy a sluss puppy and to see if i could see them (but no) i went inside the screening with my mixed flavoured drink and sadness ... looked around no sign... so i watched the film. the short film at the begging was hilarious, YOU MUST SEE THE FUNNY ALIEN SHORT FILM!!!
watched Ratatouille great film,
went to the bus stop to go home. waited for a bus, sad that i didn't see it with them. and in the distance i saw then come toward me. i was soo happy and it turn out that they was late in and was sat at the back where i didn't see them ... so we all saw it but in different ways lol

Hi everybody,

Single or Taken: taken

Siblings: 2 sisters

Eye color: *looks in mirror* green with brown

Shoe size: 6

Height: 5 something (short)

What are you wearing right now? clothes ... what do
u think im wearing ... o.o
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FAVOURITES
Kind of pants : any

Number: i dont have one

animal: i don't have one,

Drink(non alcoholic): coke probably

Drink(ALCOHOLIC): wkds

Sport:im not the sportive person

Month: i dont have one

Juice: blackcurrent

Favorite cartoon/anime character: wakko from the animaniacs lol he's so funny
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Have You Ever...
Given anyone a bath: other then me nope

Bungee Jumped?: No,i would like to..

Made yourself throw-up?: maybe

Gone skinny dipping?: not to my knowledge

Eaten a dog?: ate a hot-dog (the food) not the actual animal

Loved someone so much it made you cry?: yes. . .

Broken a bone?: came close

Played truth or dare?: yes...

Been on a plane?: yes any times

Came close to dying?: yes. that was fun

Been in a sauna?: yeah

been in a hotub?: yeah

Fallen asleep in school?: yes and at college

Broken someone's heart?: probably

Cried when someone died?: Yes...if they was
important to me

Cried in school?: yeah ... college to

Fell off your chair?: yeah, and still have the scar lol

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?: my phone is on my window sill, so it was by me at night but i wasnt waiting for a call/txt

Saved IM conversations?: nope

Saved e-mails?: nope

Used someone?: nope

Been cheated on?: hmm .. not to my knowledge

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What is...
Your good luck charm?: nothing (i don't believe in charms)

New fav. song?: hmm i have many.. i dont no what to pick

What is beside you?: *looks* mostly rubbish

Last thing you ate?: ICE CREAM!

What kind of shampoo/conditioner: Herbal Essences.
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Ever Had..
Chicken pox: i cant remember

Sore Throat: yes ... question who hasn't

Stitches: yes

Broken nose: nope... but i had a nose bleed
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Have/do You...
Believe in love at first sight?: not really

long distant relationships?: yes

Like school?: hated school ... liked college

Who was the last person that called you?: my mum

Who was the last person you slow danced with?: ..don't remember...

Who makes you smile the most?: lots of people

Who knows you the best?: i know myself the best ... sometimes

Do you like filling these out: something to do when im bored

Do you have glasses or contact lenses?: glasses and don't wear them because there sort of broken

Do you like yourself: not really, but i deal with it

Do you get along with your family?: sometimes
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Are You...
Obsessive Compulsive?: no idea
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Final Questions:
What did you do yesterday: ear infection pain, slept, on computer, tv, bathed. that was it

What car/truck do you wish to have?:i don't no.

Where do you want to get married?: not thinking about it

Good driver?: i wish to think so XD

Have a lava lamp?: used to it overheated and the bulb broken

how many remote controls are in your house?: i have no idea ... i don't count my remotes XD

When you last showered?: i dont shower, i have bath and that was yesterday

Scary or Funny Movies?: depends on my mood lol

Chocolate or Vanilla?: both

Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper?: Dr. Pepper

Skiing or Boarding?: boarding

Summer or winter?: summer
Silver or Gold?: Silver

Diamond or pearl?: Diamond

Sprite or 7up?: neither

Coffee or sweet tea? tea

Phone or in person?: Person

Are you oldest, middle or youngest?: youngest
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Today did you...
1. Talk to some one you like: yes but not in person

2. Buy something: no money, and i didnt leave my house

3. Get sick?: have and ear infection
8. Talked to an ex?: nope
9. Miss someone?: nope
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Last person who....
10. Slept in your bed?: cant remember

11. Saw/heard you cry?: no clue

12. Made you cry? no clue

13. Went to the movies with?:umm some friend to
see rush hour 3
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16. Ever been in a fight with your pet?: hahaa yes... i won

18. Been to Mexico?: Nope

19. Been to Canada?: Nope

20. Been to Europe?: yes
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Random.....
21. Do you have a crush on someone right now: ... maybe

22. What book are you reading now?nothing atm

23. Best feeling in the world?: hyperness

24. Future KIDS names?: pffftt not thinking about that

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: nope

26. What's under your bed?: boxes with random stuff inside and rubbish

27. Favorite sports to watch: nope im not a sportive person

28. Favorite Locations?: ummmm ...landscape places and my room

29. Piercing/Tattoos?: ears, and belly bar

30. What are you most scared of right now?: huge spiders

31. Who do you really hate?: hate is a strong word i dislike a lot of things

32. Do you have a job?: no

33. Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?: maybe

34. Are you lonely right now?: *looks around* yeah but i have music so im happy

38. Song that's stuck in your head right now?: nope

39. Have you ever played strip poker?: :s is that where u strip someone and poke them lol

40. Have you ever been beaten up?: not badly

42. Have you ever been on radio/TV?: nope

44. Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you?: ....
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Random...
what colour is your underwear right now?: *looks* stripy colour ones

Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex?: eyes,hair...behaviour

Your Favorite Food?: ummmm.

Ever get so drunk you dont remember the night before: yes

Hair color?:black, with brown

Are you too shy to ask someone out?: sometimes, it depends

Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?: SUGAR!!

Dogs or cats?: DOGS! i hate cats

Favorite Flower?:.. mixed colour flowers but i don't think u can get them

Have you ever fired a gun?: yes

Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?: car... plane is expensive

How many pillows do you sleep with? 2-3 pillows

some ideas what i asked to have on someone's DA, of so idea for drawings/ comics.

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules/
51. Spor
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvatio
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation